Once, I was naïve and reckless enough to pull a stocking over my face and stand in front of the post office with a fake gun; this was a tiny college town, and thankfully, no one was around to see us.
In another series, I played a pin-up girl in a bikini and a fake tan, all pep and hammy sexiness as I undressed, until, in the final shots, I am naked and not too thrilled about it.
On the way, we stopped at a store called The Black Hole in Los Alamos, which sold surplus items from the famous nuclear testing site just a few miles away. I played that role willingly because I wanted to subvert it.
Take a closer look at awesome hot older women that adore showing their tight pussies, clean asses and long sexy legs.A few months later, I received copies of the photos from that day.Spencer was showcasing these images in vintage keychain viewfinders.Imagining this project, however, and writing about it, was a total delight.I loved coming up with Esther's ideas, and as I wrote about her process, how her mind discarded certain plans and then embraced others, I felt like I was in college again.I would visit Ryan and my other art major friends at their studios, pore over their contact sheets, and wade through their monographs of famous photographers.I didn't know how to use a camera myself, and anytime someone began to describe how a light meter worked, or what an F-stop was, I lost interest.I was with Ryan, laughing about how crazy and brilliant Joel-Peter Witkin's photos of corpses were.Or I was hanging Anna's huge photograph of a wintry drive-in above my bed.My friends said they would be terrified to take their clothes off in public, to have their nude bodies documented, then studied and critiqued in a class. I grew up with sisters and among friends for whom nudity was the norm.We shared dressing rooms and bathrooms, we witnessed the removal of tampons, discussed what we liked about our breasts, made jokes about our poop. We didn't hate them, as it seemed like so many teenagers in movies and on TV did; we didn't take them too seriously, either.